post406 ([info]post406) wrote,
@ 2009-03-11 14:12:00
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But the plan won't accomplish anything if it's not implemented
I've never actually had a plan. That may sound odd to my friends. I had good grades in high school. Good grades weren't some conscious decision though. You were supposed to get good grades so I did it. I was the engineer in college. I chose engineering because I was good at math in high school and that's what you did if you were good at math. Plus it looked like a well paying profession. In college the engineer's curriculum was pretty much planned out. I chose exactly one elective in my first three years. It certainly looked like I had a plan. In reality I just kind of went with the flow. I chose grad school because I finished early and then applied for software jobs because that's what I was qualified for. The MathWorks hired me and I work there because it's stable, pays well, is a nice environment and challenges my brain to a certain extent. When I think about career goals though I kind of come up blank.

My personal life is kind of the same way. Most of the things I've done since college wouldn't have happened without Carol - marriage, a home, a kid, other decisions along the way. I would have probably made them at some point. They have all been awesome choices. Carol influenced me along though. With my friends I usually go with the flow when it comes to decisions. Now my plan is to raise this kid to the best of my ability. Let me be clear, I know and knew I wanted a child. I know and knew that I wanted to spend my life with Carol. Looking back though I don't see any drive on my part. I will raise a glorious child, I'm sure of it. When I think about it though, it feels like a plan of necessity even though I want it and think it will be amazing.



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